i still dont feel connected to senegal and ive had many bad momments here and living in the usa is much better for someone like me then senegal but....
its not all bad, dont get me wrong, i know saying stuff like " i hate senegal! " is verry offensive and you have a right to be offended by that statement but im just saying personally, my expirences where not good and i did not have a good time, i had good momments but overrall my expirence was bad and i still do not like or feel connected to senegal. at all.
i feel like being here brought out the worst in me, like actually, there are things i did that me before this year would never agree with.
(actually ive done bad things when pushed to an extremely low mental state before but its never been this bad ever.)
anyways maybe it was good to confront this side of myself
since 2017 ive been feeling really sad , uncomfortable , extremely sensitive and ive had terrible mood swings (like realllllly bad) , and this year was probably the worst one in this whole "sad maryam era"
but this is the last year and era that will be like that.
im going to make sure that senior year is the year i get my crap together, this year will be amazing idc what anyone says i just know it.
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