MY SHINEE PHASE : THE END OF MY STAN ERA

TW: MENTION OF SUICIDE 

SO YALL I GOT INTO KPOP IN 2017, I WAS A HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE STAN LIKE OMG IT WAS BADDD

LIKE 3RD GEN GOT ME INTO KPOP(after i heard russian roulette my life changed😔🤚) BUT THE ONLY GEN I LIKE IS 2ND GEN, I LIKE A BIT OF FIRST GEN TOO BUT I HAAAAAATE 4TH GEN KPOP, I FEEL THEY CARE MORE ABT THEM LOOKING CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE THEN THE MUSIC. 

ALSO THE IDOLS THEY DEBUTING ARE GETTING YOUNGER AND YOUNGER ITS WEIRD

I LIKED ITZY EARLY SONGS BUT AFTER NOT SHY I WAS LOSING INTEREST, I LIKED MAFIA IN THE MORNING THO, I LIKED LOONA AND GIDLE TOO

LIKE I HAVENT LISTENED TO KPOP SINCE.... 2021... IM BEING SO FR

I LIKE ZOOM THO!

AND FOR KPOP I LISTENED TO MORE OF THE MUSIC VIDEO/TITLE TRACKS AND NOT REALLY ANY ALBUMS

I DO THAT FOR MOST ARTISTS TBH SO DONT HATE ME ANYWAYS BEFORE I TALK ABT SHINEE MY FAVE KPOP GROUPS AREEE:

1.SHINEE

2. KARA, WONDER GIRLS (I CANT PICK YALL)

I LIKE ALOTTA SONGS FROM FX, 4 MINUTE, SNSD, MISS A, TARA, SISTAR, 2NE1, BROWN EYED GIRLS

OMG I REALLY LIKE BOA'S MY NAME AND ALOT OF HYUNA SONGS

I DO LIKE ALOTTA EARLY TWICE AND RED VELVET AND BLACKPINK AND SOME AOA SONGS

MY FAVE TWICE SONG IS DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY

MY FAV RED VELVET SONG IS RUSSIAN ROULETTE, IT WHAT GOT ME INTO THEIR MUSIC

MY FAVE BLACKPINK SONG IS DEFF BOOMBAYAH 

FOR 4TH GEN I LIKED IZONES SONGS, SOME GIDLE SONGS, I USED TO LOVE EVERGLOW'S SONGS AND FROMIS9 AND LOONA TOO

IM DEFINETLY FORGETTING SOME GROUPS CUZ I LISTEN TO SO MUCH BUT OH WELL, THERE WAS A VIDEO COMPARING KPOP AND JPOP BUT ITS TAKEN DOWN I GOT INTO KPOP CUZ OF THAT VIDEO, I USED TO ONLY LIKE JPOP TBH

YOU MAY HAVE NOTICED I MENTIONED ONLY GIRL GROUPS... I LIKE THEM BETTER TBH

I DONT REALLY LIKE BOY GROUPS I MEAN I LIKE 2PM'S PUT YOUR HANDS UP AND SUPER JUNIORS MR SIMPLE AND SORRY SORRY BUT THATS IT..

OR IT WAS

SOOOOO I WAS WATCHING MY FAVE KPOP YOUTUBER AND THEY WERE DISCUSSING SUBSCRIBERS FAVE KPOP SONGS AND I SAW SHINEE'S SHERLOCK(THIS SONG GOT ME INTO THEIR GROUP) AND I WAS HOOKED

THE SNIPPET PLAYED SOUNDED SO GOOD AND I NOTICED ONEW AND TAEMINS FACE AND WENT 😳

I NEEDED TO FIND THEM

SO I WENT AND LISTENED TO THE SONG AND I SHARED IT TO ALL MY FRIEND AND I WOULDNT STOP TALKING ABT IT THEY MADE FUN OF ME SO MUCH FOR THAT💀💀

I WATCHED ALL THEIR MUSIC VIDEOS, I STILL LOVE THEIR MUSIC AND I LISTENED TO SOME SIDE TRACKS I REALLY LIKE JOJO AND DOO BOP

AT FIRST MY BIAS WAS TAEMIN, AND I HEARD ONE OF HIS INSPOS WAS MICHEAL JACKSON AND PRIOR TO THIS PHASE I HAD A HUUUUUUUUUUGE MICHEAL JACKSON PHASE SO THAT DEFF CONTRIBUTED, BUT AFTER I SAW THE HELLO MUSIC VIDEO, ONEW WAS NO LONGER THE BIAS WRECKER HE WAS THE BIAS 😻

LIKE LOOKING BACK IM NOT SURPRISED, ONEW LOOKS LIKE GUYS I TYPICALLY AM ATTRACTED TO ANYWAYS, I REALLY LIKE PRETTY GUYS WITH LONG HAIR

I WAS MOST ATTRACTED TO HIM FROM 2009 TO 2012 CUZ I LOOOVE LONGER HAIR 💃💃💃

AND YALL DONT GET ME WRONG I STILL FIND TAEMIN ATTRACTIVE I JUST FIND MYSELF MORE ATTRACTED TO ONEW THATS ALL💃

ANYWAYS I WATCHED SHINEE HELLO BABY AND SHINEE YUNHANAM AND I LOVED IT

I WAS OBSSESED

I NEVER WAS THAT DELUSIONAL TO THINK ID GET W ANY OF EM BUT I DID THINK I WAS IN LOVE😳...

LMAOOOO

ANYWAYSSSSSS💀💀

AS I STARTED TO GET DEEPER IN THE FANDOM I REALIZED HOW BAD STANNING WAS AND ALL THE SEASANG FANS AND SUICIDES THAT HAPPENED DUE TO THE IDOLS BAD MENTAL HEALTH I STARTED TO REALIZE HOW CRUEL THE KPOP INDUSTRY IS

THE TRAINING SYSTEM AND HOW IDOLS TRAIN FOR YEARS AND HOW BEING YOUNG IS SUPER IMPORTANT

THEY ALSO DONT HAVE LOTS OF FREEDOM

ALSO VISUALS ARE REALLY IMPORTANT AND THE KOREAN BEAUTY STANDARD IS VERY STRICT AND UGH THERE IS SO MUCH

BUT YEAH THERE IS A DARK SIDE

BRUH I FORGOT THE BULLYING

ANYWAYS 

YEAH UHM THERES A DARK PERFECTIONIST SIDE TO KPOP AS THERE IS WITH ALL INDUSTRIES BUT IT SHOCKS ALOT OF PPL BECAUSE PPL KINDA EXPECT KPOP TO BE DIFFERENT IDK ITS WEIRD

BUT I STILL LISTEN TO SECOND GEN KPOP

HOWEVER I MATURED AND STOPPED STANNING PEOPLE, IM ONLY A FAN OF PPL'S WORK NOT EVEN THEM

BUT YEAH MY KPOP ERA, IS WHAT CHANGED THAT FOR ME ITS WHAT MADE ME REALIZE HOW DELUSIONAL STANNING IS AND HOW ITS HEALTHIER FOR YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE IF UR A FAN