realizing some things

these were taken at work

 i think one of my biggest triggers is people yelling at me, like genuienly when people yell at me i feel truly violent urges towards the other person and i feel like crying an ocean, it actually frustrastes me so mad bcuz u can literally lower youre voice, i can hear you just fine, no need to yell so damn loud like oml i can hear you, when people yell i try to cover my ears.

i was yelled at by a parenial today because i left the light on or something, like omg okay i get it i left it on, but why are you acting like i commited murder? i have a really sour and rocky relationship with my parenials tbh, they both traumatized me in their own ways, i constantly fluctuate between hating and loving them, and the thing is, none of them like taking accountability, like at all, so i just stopped expecting it

anyways im so done, i feel teary eyed but nothing is comming out, ugh im so fucking mad, the week was going so well too...